A Tryst of Two

A Tryst of Two

Slowly she (of course) slides her fingers
Across her bottom lip it leaves
To comb through her hair; as a tease

Batting her lashes for the man she see’s
A gorgeous specimen; she couldn’t believe
A man to drop her to her knees

Heated breath escapes down her neck
His lips about to touch her beautiful breasts
Her hips grind under each heave of his chest

She squirms away
….it’s her turn for him to undress
His body, she’s aroused in her conquest

Heavenly hands, lips, & such
Superseding his dreams; so much
Firm but gentle she knows her touch

Pursuing more than not
Passion building beyond white hot
Two bodies yearning to be interlocked

TBC
to be continued…..

Come Home

He wakes up in a bundle of sweat
His dreams of her; he quietly wept
Concept of her was all he had kept

She left him, while he slept
Into the darkness she crept
Shadows to swallow the rest

Moon to be high in the sky; a crest
Stars to twinkle in her eyes; the best
Off to travel to the far far west

He pondered why she would fly
Why she would leave his side
Why she would make him cry

Nap sack & satchel she went on her trek
Not want to heal others; herself a wreck
Farther she traveled on her quest

His love once to flourish; now flounder
Taken for granted and her feelings turn sour
She’s not ready for another encounter

A gamble she’s willing to wholeheartedly handle
Down the path of the ill, less traveled
She takes herself & starts to unravel

Her dreams are of not fantasy
Just to find a place called home
A place where no one need be alone

Needing a quick study

She needed him,
More than she understood
More so, than I believed she ever would

Her love for this man grew
Into her heart she let him ensue
She really believed just them two

Reality of lies, deception and carelessness
Feelings of her’s where second, at best
He failed in flying colors, test after test

She gave herself so freely
Her sicknesses and mental disease
Her ailments & wicked deeds

Protection is all she really did want
To be loved and protected not bought
Honored & respected is all she sought

Lessons he has had to live & learn
Feeling, most of the time like he’s been burned
She had wished he’d make her more his concern

Needing A Quick Study?

Gone, Another Year

Well, today 23 yrs ago I married for the first (& last) time. I was 20 yrs old & scared w/a 7 month old baby and I hadn’t “planned” nor was I ever ‘asked’ to marry. It was my mother who told me to marry ‘that’ man. (yes, I was that stupid). He was going off into the service & that was my mothers reasoning as to why……Following me? Needless to say, long story short, our separation happened in ’06 and my divorce in ’09. 6 yrs since divorce finalize and 9 yrs since separation. I will openly admit that financially my life has been one hardship after another. Not only struggling w/finances but trying to raise a 14 yr old son who has not had a father in his life. Sometimes it feels like directing a bull through a china shop. He’s a great kid w/a dry witty sense of humor (no clue where he gets that from-smirk-) I watch him do his best and my heart breaks just that bit for his father (by his own means) missing all of this! I will continue to do all I can…….I get tired sometimes but it’s worth it.

I digress, My marriage was a scam from the beginning …wanna know something more sad? It’s pretty pathetic by all means & I had my 2nd child (10 yrs later) w/my husband (at the time) just to NOT have 2 baby daddies….I wanted a 2nd child & he made it clear to me that he didn’t give a rats ass. He set the stage and I built the cast. (sigh) Some things I’d actually like to change now & today (I never thought i’d say that so late in this game).

Long story short (hahaha…dont’ u wish)……Today “was” my wedding anniversary & now I celebrate April 17th…..the date of my divorce finalized @ HIGH NOON nonetheless (hahahah) This date will always ring in my ears as the years pass and a reminder of how important it is for a person to be happy vs. existing.

I was the best devout wife I could be.
He ruined it!

You took my body w/hate-filled lust
You crushed my soul violating my spirit
You stabbed me in my bust; so serious
You broke all my endless trust; I was furious

You killed our family & crushed our hearts
You ripped us completely apart
You where never so smart hoping for a restart

You can come again, what was it you said to me?
You said, “I wanted to prove I was still a man”
You needed to prove to me through sexually abusing me?

What man would ever do that willingly by his own hands
What man would ever do that to a wife who satisfied demands
What man would ever do that to a woman who only tried to
UNDERSTAND

This I’ll NEVER grasp……Cheers to another years passed!!!!

Lovers’ Elipse

Blowing him a gentle kiss
It is “he” she’s truly going to miss
His most handsomeness’

Lacing her fingers around his being; whole
Engulfing his entire quintessence;
She delicately fondles his beautiful soul
Complete coalescence

Taking a needed step for her protection
She needs to stop being skeptic of accepting
Start consenting to all her countless beautiful blessings

Into his soul she slipped deepest to roam
In his arms she felt unconfined; so, she wrote
She, for once, feeling completely awoke

In his eyes, it was she he kept undressing
His inability to understand his second guessing
Unable to express his sins he so wishes to transpire
All he’s able to do is stand back & admire

He believes a queen amongst the rubble
He think he’s mate amongst her mess
He has found his lover hidden undercover

As he is to sing
Beautiful music note for note; was sung
Into the night’s air it lingered & hung

Unbeknownst to him
Little whispers that escape her lips
Sugar-coated so sweetly all the way to the tips
She took total control;
A lovers’ eclipse

Write Today For Knowing Yesterday

She dips and disappears
She fades away only to reappear
Her temper mild & a memory unclear
She forgives because she forgets my dear

She is loving & ever so kind
Isn’t that how… is the words to go & rhyme
Boast a bit & brag some more; settle the score
Express oneself, sometimes, a bit too hard-core

She only dips to divert attention
She only disappears to relieve tension
It’s the obsession of her emotional expression
It’s about her perception of some of her connections

Sometimes, she feels to wither & wilt inside
Wanting nothing more than to run & to hide
Her feelings set too far aside; he lied
She tried but it was his pride to guide

Forgiveness he has sought
Is it her lesson to teach him or not?
Inside her world there is so much pain; a lot
She’s not so sure she can unlearn what he had taught

She could not cast aside the tears cried; onslaught
Goodbye she waves as she tries to carry about her day
Tears in her pocket & a smile painted on for display
She’s ready to tackle anyone that gets in her way

Let’s get moving right along~~~~TODAY

BARE

Spiraling, time slides on
Feelings, everything went wrong
Foundation weakened; not so strong
My feelings, only, truest of true all along

Brought to you, My heart
I gave it freely from the start
I watched you in pure shock & horror
Slowly & manically you rip & pick it apart

Compare not to anything to which you belong
Empty became the challenge all along
Nirvana never walking by both our sides
Riddles of your discrepancies I would question, “Why”?

I had let you do as you wished
I, not your priority was bullshit
A shift; I no longer missed your kiss
I will never dismiss my feelings overall this

Dreams of my fantasies & wishes
A man to which will call me misses
Relationship to cherish never perish
Standing strong in complete fairness

Is that such rareness?

PURSUE

Her great prowess of the flesh
She was ultimately the best
She never held back like the rest

Passion pouring out of her pores
She ravishes you straight to your core
Speechless except enough to say, “MORE”

Sexuality she exudes on every level
Even when so very unorganized & disheveled
Her naughty side embarrasses even the devil

Candle flames flicker higher up
Pulling you down to the level she loves
Horizontal for an innocent back rub

Renounced on what to do on queue
She leans down & whisper to you;
“Oh, Baby….If you only knew”

That’s when he started to
PURSUE

Ramblings 1,001 (I’m sure)

I stare at this monitor expecting words to just jump to my fingers and the life blood of me would spill. To NO LUCK…not a single words strokes my fancy. Not one single words rocks my boat. It is a hard time when you haven’t a reason to rhyme or a rhyme to help reason.

The questions still sequestering answers to be seen. I do not write poetry, don’t get me wrong…. I am a writer w/no where do I belong. I am the lost soul so many sing. I was the one lurking in the darkened streets; unseen. My home was my haven under the stars is where I decided to be. Away from her harming me. Away from others to see, away from everything…..even ME. I walked many a dark street….wandering…..wondering….what it would be like to be “free”. What would it be like to live in an actual family? Those years bring so many hardened tears so many fears. PTSD is what reward I got for the years of torment by her hand. The years of disappointment in my Dad. Little had I known I would repeat the cycle ever so bad……..when it came to choosing my children(s) Dad.

For now, alone on this journey….oh, understand, it has nothing to do with being strong. I am weak as they come. My heart bleeds for those who are bloodless. My soul screams & fits if she feels any anguish from the one she once kissed. I am not of strength but of weaknesses I have come to accept AND….. Yes, I speak of my heart as an entity all it’s own……why can I not think the same as my heart? She has a mind of her own; my heart. To bad rationality is not where she’s all that smart.

I close ……idk…….

Hello…….

Hello my friend
You’ve been idle; come on in
Let’s chat awhile…..
Clear the mind, maybe a small smile

What is it that has brought you here?
What is it that brought you so near?
What is it my sweetest of dears?
Come share w/me what it is you did hear

Hello again….
You’ve been so quiet; come on in
Let’s chat awhile…
Come confess your sins you hold w/in

Your darkest of creatures
The blackest of night
Your fearful demons
To never reach light

Hello my friend,
You’ve been so beguiled; come on in
Let’s chat for a short while…
We can reminisce as if we were a child

Carefree but not careless
Careful and courageous
Content to complacent
Confident and compassionate

Hello my dear…
You’ve been so riled,come on in
Let’s stay awhile…..
Speak your mind & individual style

Thoughtless many have thunk
Drop-less many have dunked
Spotless many have junked
All their valuables dumped

Hello my friend
We now near the end
Let’s close

Good-bye – For now