Queen; Me!

I saw my worth, when you gave me no berth
I did struggle; to see, why it was ‘I’ who didn’t want to believe
Clearly, I want not worthy, ever again, in your company
Your eyes only on your self(ish) wealth & nobodies needs
You steal from the mild-mannered & those you see weak
I saw it like a job, turn the other cheek…….sortofspeak
Not one employee to be; on your behalf, to stand before me!
For, I have watched years of what it is you do
Corruption and greed; it be your motto & even creed
Evil lurks behind those dull grey eyes & wrinkled droopy lids
Your heinous mind is where your evil does breed & live
Deeds you’ve done; not surprising anyone ..but simple o’le me
I too, no longer believe a single word you do bleed
You are full of shit ..I SEE..lies & manipulation is your wealth
I will not hold a grudge……but, yet, I will NOT budge..nor indulge… Ill will or unhealthy
Not to be your judge nor the jury, to whom will inevitably get you on perjury
You will see what it means to be a “lesser of thee”
Without my interference……you will then believe
Thine, will to be done…….to correct what you’ve done
Let’s have some fun~
Come on EVERYONE! Repenting has just begun 🙂
<smirk>

Peace

To peace she seeks
Searching long & hard
Coming to the same conclusion all along
There is no real peace except inside

It is not what one can FIND
it is not one can BUILD
it’s not one can LEARN
it’s not one to be TAUGHT
It’s a being of
It’s that simple
Inside the deepest of depths
Reach down and truly confess
The sins and the rest
The blessing and the tests
Bring it all to the table
Sit in the silence of grace
What a fantastical relief

~PEACE~

Prevail….

It never fails
The rain and hail
Over and over it prevails

Thrashing on all
No reason to stop
Down the fall; drop

Crumbling away each day
Slowly slowly torn away
Built back up in a new way

Time has come
It’s time to sing
Time to spread your wings

Knowledge to be your power
This world to not devour
Another good soul too afraid & cower

Into the unknown; who’s to say
There is not but many right ways
There is more than black & white; gray

Past your comfort zone
Out of your home
Into the blue yonder; you roam

Write Today For Knowing Yesterday

She dips and disappears
She fades away only to reappear
Her temper mild & a memory unclear
She forgives because she forgets my dear

She is loving & ever so kind
Isn’t that how… is the words to go & rhyme
Boast a bit & brag some more; settle the score
Express oneself, sometimes, a bit too hard-core

She only dips to divert attention
She only disappears to relieve tension
It’s the obsession of her emotional expression
It’s about her perception of some of her connections

Sometimes, she feels to wither & wilt inside
Wanting nothing more than to run & to hide
Her feelings set too far aside; he lied
She tried but it was his pride to guide

Forgiveness he has sought
Is it her lesson to teach him or not?
Inside her world there is so much pain; a lot
She’s not so sure she can unlearn what he had taught

She could not cast aside the tears cried; onslaught
Goodbye she waves as she tries to carry about her day
Tears in her pocket & a smile painted on for display
She’s ready to tackle anyone that gets in her way

Let’s get moving right along~~~~TODAY

Ramblings 1,001 (I’m sure)

I stare at this monitor expecting words to just jump to my fingers and the life blood of me would spill. To NO LUCK…not a single words strokes my fancy. Not one single words rocks my boat. It is a hard time when you haven’t a reason to rhyme or a rhyme to help reason.

The questions still sequestering answers to be seen. I do not write poetry, don’t get me wrong…. I am a writer w/no where do I belong. I am the lost soul so many sing. I was the one lurking in the darkened streets; unseen. My home was my haven under the stars is where I decided to be. Away from her harming me. Away from others to see, away from everything…..even ME. I walked many a dark street….wandering…..wondering….what it would be like to be “free”. What would it be like to live in an actual family? Those years bring so many hardened tears so many fears. PTSD is what reward I got for the years of torment by her hand. The years of disappointment in my Dad. Little had I known I would repeat the cycle ever so bad……..when it came to choosing my children(s) Dad.

For now, alone on this journey….oh, understand, it has nothing to do with being strong. I am weak as they come. My heart bleeds for those who are bloodless. My soul screams & fits if she feels any anguish from the one she once kissed. I am not of strength but of weaknesses I have come to accept AND….. Yes, I speak of my heart as an entity all it’s own……why can I not think the same as my heart? She has a mind of her own; my heart. To bad rationality is not where she’s all that smart.

I close ……idk…….

Hello…….

Hello my friend
You’ve been idle; come on in
Let’s chat awhile…..
Clear the mind, maybe a small smile

What is it that has brought you here?
What is it that brought you so near?
What is it my sweetest of dears?
Come share w/me what it is you did hear

Hello again….
You’ve been so quiet; come on in
Let’s chat awhile…
Come confess your sins you hold w/in

Your darkest of creatures
The blackest of night
Your fearful demons
To never reach light

Hello my friend,
You’ve been so beguiled; come on in
Let’s chat for a short while…
We can reminisce as if we were a child

Carefree but not careless
Careful and courageous
Content to complacent
Confident and compassionate

Hello my dear…
You’ve been so riled,come on in
Let’s stay awhile…..
Speak your mind & individual style

Thoughtless many have thunk
Drop-less many have dunked
Spotless many have junked
All their valuables dumped

Hello my friend
We now near the end
Let’s close

Good-bye – For now

GIDDY UP

GIDDY UP

she gently slides out of her bed
He’s fast asleep; so, nothing said
Excruciating pain emanates from her soul
Instead of misread; a single tear she did shed

Her heart has, yet, found it’s void; again
She thought it he was pure history; slain
The dragon of discouragement was dead
Now, he’s back & twice as strong

Stealing her sleep
Making her weep
Laughing as she retreats
He wins w/her defeat

Alone she is in her wildest fears
Alone she allows her flow of tears
Alone she was amongst the clouds
Alone she was drifting through all the years

Beauty bestowed her soul
Cater to her every wish she did behold
Only one man to ever truly know
Her heart that hath turned so very cold

Alone she’ll forever stand….
Even when holding your very own hand
Even when you’ve proven to be a man
She still holds the reigns in her hands

GIDDY UP

Broken Glass

Your looks I see;
They do not represent thee
Misguiding & tricking me
If you only knew the real ‘he’

Into the realm of falsities
Cover up all your abnormalities
Societies known rejects
You treat too many as nobodies

Hating the you, you’ve become
Attacking others just for fun
Talking, I stopped to you my friend
Creating pure drama, you do, in the end

I watch you don that mask
Sweep up my hearts broken glass
Discard it all in the trash
I thought our friendship would have last

What a joke!

M.o.n.e. & sometimes y

Many times. we simply enjoy to say,
Money can build many joyous days
Merrier almost every possible way

Only with a falsified smiling mask
Only richest live; living a big laugh
Only the poor, to not finish the task

Nothing to last for infinity & more
Neither class to have used any tact
Neither nor shall there be anymore

Entering a class of a lot of untruths
Eternal riches blossoming ill wills
Everyone’s desires, seems uncouth

Yearning the hen egg of solid gold
Yourself, a bitter soul quickly sold
Yesterday’s gold only to grow old
M(issed).
O(pportunities).
N(ever)
E(ncountered)
& sometimes
Y(earned)?

Good Morning & So Much More

As the day is to dawn
Dew glazed across the luscious lawn
Crisp under the bottoms of her sensitive feet
As she gazes at the black swan; she carries on

A bronze hue cast, even, upon the darkest hollows
Light birthed into the dank, gloomy shadows
Through the trees & marshy ways
Light laid upon a new day

Lifting into the morning air
The beautiful swan takes off; solitary
As he spreads his wings; a soft song he sings
She watches something so uniquely (un)oridnary

A beautiful morning, not to be carelessly mistaken
Never to be taken for granted or forsaken
This new day is for your own making
New way for the taking

Across the clear placid lake
Sun shining on every wave of his wake
Powerful wings disturbed the nearby things
Gently as he lands into the water sill making a quake

Her bright future that she’s ready to fully explore
The black swan showed her what’s in store
Stretching before her. the lake of love
Thereof, her soul did soar

Good Morning & so much more