Lovers’ Elipse

Blowing him a gentle kiss
It is “he” she’s truly going to miss
His most handsomeness’

Lacing her fingers around his being; whole
Engulfing his entire quintessence;
She delicately fondles his beautiful soul
Complete coalescence

Taking a needed step for her protection
She needs to stop being skeptic of accepting
Start consenting to all her countless beautiful blessings

Into his soul she slipped deepest to roam
In his arms she felt unconfined; so, she wrote
She, for once, feeling completely awoke

In his eyes, it was she he kept undressing
His inability to understand his second guessing
Unable to express his sins he so wishes to transpire
All he’s able to do is stand back & admire

He believes a queen amongst the rubble
He think he’s mate amongst her mess
He has found his lover hidden undercover

As he is to sing
Beautiful music note for note; was sung
Into the night’s air it lingered & hung

Unbeknownst to him
Little whispers that escape her lips
Sugar-coated so sweetly all the way to the tips
She took total control;
A lovers’ eclipse

Write Today For Knowing Yesterday

She dips and disappears
She fades away only to reappear
Her temper mild & a memory unclear
She forgives because she forgets my dear

She is loving & ever so kind
Isn’t that how… is the words to go & rhyme
Boast a bit & brag some more; settle the score
Express oneself, sometimes, a bit too hard-core

She only dips to divert attention
She only disappears to relieve tension
It’s the obsession of her emotional expression
It’s about her perception of some of her connections

Sometimes, she feels to wither & wilt inside
Wanting nothing more than to run & to hide
Her feelings set too far aside; he lied
She tried but it was his pride to guide

Forgiveness he has sought
Is it her lesson to teach him or not?
Inside her world there is so much pain; a lot
She’s not so sure she can unlearn what he had taught

She could not cast aside the tears cried; onslaught
Goodbye she waves as she tries to carry about her day
Tears in her pocket & a smile painted on for display
She’s ready to tackle anyone that gets in her way

Let’s get moving right along~~~~TODAY

BARE

Spiraling, time slides on
Feelings, everything went wrong
Foundation weakened; not so strong
My feelings, only, truest of true all along

Brought to you, My heart
I gave it freely from the start
I watched you in pure shock & horror
Slowly & manically you rip & pick it apart

Compare not to anything to which you belong
Empty became the challenge all along
Nirvana never walking by both our sides
Riddles of your discrepancies I would question, “Why”?

I had let you do as you wished
I, not your priority was bullshit
A shift; I no longer missed your kiss
I will never dismiss my feelings overall this

Dreams of my fantasies & wishes
A man to which will call me misses
Relationship to cherish never perish
Standing strong in complete fairness

Is that such rareness?

Ramblings 1,001 (I’m sure)

I stare at this monitor expecting words to just jump to my fingers and the life blood of me would spill. To NO LUCK…not a single words strokes my fancy. Not one single words rocks my boat. It is a hard time when you haven’t a reason to rhyme or a rhyme to help reason.

The questions still sequestering answers to be seen. I do not write poetry, don’t get me wrong…. I am a writer w/no where do I belong. I am the lost soul so many sing. I was the one lurking in the darkened streets; unseen. My home was my haven under the stars is where I decided to be. Away from her harming me. Away from others to see, away from everything…..even ME. I walked many a dark street….wandering…..wondering….what it would be like to be “free”. What would it be like to live in an actual family? Those years bring so many hardened tears so many fears. PTSD is what reward I got for the years of torment by her hand. The years of disappointment in my Dad. Little had I known I would repeat the cycle ever so bad……..when it came to choosing my children(s) Dad.

For now, alone on this journey….oh, understand, it has nothing to do with being strong. I am weak as they come. My heart bleeds for those who are bloodless. My soul screams & fits if she feels any anguish from the one she once kissed. I am not of strength but of weaknesses I have come to accept AND….. Yes, I speak of my heart as an entity all it’s own……why can I not think the same as my heart? She has a mind of her own; my heart. To bad rationality is not where she’s all that smart.

I close ……idk…….

Hello…….

Hello my friend
You’ve been idle; come on in
Let’s chat awhile…..
Clear the mind, maybe a small smile

What is it that has brought you here?
What is it that brought you so near?
What is it my sweetest of dears?
Come share w/me what it is you did hear

Hello again….
You’ve been so quiet; come on in
Let’s chat awhile…
Come confess your sins you hold w/in

Your darkest of creatures
The blackest of night
Your fearful demons
To never reach light

Hello my friend,
You’ve been so beguiled; come on in
Let’s chat for a short while…
We can reminisce as if we were a child

Carefree but not careless
Careful and courageous
Content to complacent
Confident and compassionate

Hello my dear…
You’ve been so riled,come on in
Let’s stay awhile…..
Speak your mind & individual style

Thoughtless many have thunk
Drop-less many have dunked
Spotless many have junked
All their valuables dumped

Hello my friend
We now near the end
Let’s close

Good-bye – For now

GIDDY UP

GIDDY UP

she gently slides out of her bed
He’s fast asleep; so, nothing said
Excruciating pain emanates from her soul
Instead of misread; a single tear she did shed

Her heart has, yet, found it’s void; again
She thought it he was pure history; slain
The dragon of discouragement was dead
Now, he’s back & twice as strong

Stealing her sleep
Making her weep
Laughing as she retreats
He wins w/her defeat

Alone she is in her wildest fears
Alone she allows her flow of tears
Alone she was amongst the clouds
Alone she was drifting through all the years

Beauty bestowed her soul
Cater to her every wish she did behold
Only one man to ever truly know
Her heart that hath turned so very cold

Alone she’ll forever stand….
Even when holding your very own hand
Even when you’ve proven to be a man
She still holds the reigns in her hands

GIDDY UP

Broken Glass

Your looks I see;
They do not represent thee
Misguiding & tricking me
If you only knew the real ‘he’

Into the realm of falsities
Cover up all your abnormalities
Societies known rejects
You treat too many as nobodies

Hating the you, you’ve become
Attacking others just for fun
Talking, I stopped to you my friend
Creating pure drama, you do, in the end

I watch you don that mask
Sweep up my hearts broken glass
Discard it all in the trash
I thought our friendship would have last

What a joke!

DEFEAT

Dry your eyes my child
It is not as it seems
A nightmare of remember(ing’s)

Falsities & fallacies; she was diseased
She e’er to be humane in this society
Her mind of ill will & heart sheathed

My dear, what is there to fear
Come closer let’s take a look
We can figure out what they took

She tried to rape her childlike innocence
Unbeknownst to her the child was here before
Vengeance was how this child was born

Come hither sweet one,
Into my softest of bosoms
It’s to chill & you might catch cold

Evil sin that child saw in that woman’s mind
Beat and belittled when her name she’d call
Horrible child amongst them all; she be reminded

History to repeat; family incomplete
No remorse in the divorce
A cycle she dare did not repeat
She now faces……complete
Defeat

Good Morning & So Much More

As the day is to dawn
Dew glazed across the luscious lawn
Crisp under the bottoms of her sensitive feet
As she gazes at the black swan; she carries on

A bronze hue cast, even, upon the darkest hollows
Light birthed into the dank, gloomy shadows
Through the trees & marshy ways
Light laid upon a new day

Lifting into the morning air
The beautiful swan takes off; solitary
As he spreads his wings; a soft song he sings
She watches something so uniquely (un)oridnary

A beautiful morning, not to be carelessly mistaken
Never to be taken for granted or forsaken
This new day is for your own making
New way for the taking

Across the clear placid lake
Sun shining on every wave of his wake
Powerful wings disturbed the nearby things
Gently as he lands into the water sill making a quake

Her bright future that she’s ready to fully explore
The black swan showed her what’s in store
Stretching before her. the lake of love
Thereof, her soul did soar

Good Morning & so much more

On My Own

You see, it’s not easy being me
The silence I crave for thee
Otherwise it’s fight or flight
You best believe!

Haunting(s) of darkness fills your heart
Your soul screaming as it’s ripped apart
Eaten by the beast to which it claimed
Into the darkness a horrible black art

Slipper slope of wasting away more than before
It it helps me soar & takes away so much more
Just one hard, fast, & sharp down my leg at last
Opening me up, blood dripping to the floor; gore(y)

The ones to push & tear me apart
Sarcasm at the very start, thought themselves smart
I have no ill will toward those
My softened heart; my weakest part

Depression, welcome my friend
I’ve been waiting for you; is this the end?
Do you know I have saved you a spot
Come to me & make this all be pretend

My razor, I set aside
I can not hide from the depression’s ride
My body my temple only for expression
My guide to take my hand to help me stand
On My Own