Devastating

Crouched in the darkened corner
Afraid their coming for her
Knowing it will, eventually, be a blur

Hands so hurtful
Minds so twisted
Devastatingly deeds showing sickness

Fragrances assaulting her nose
Waving slowly below
Shhh…..no one needs to know

transcending to another place
While fulfilling their disgusting desires
Her body treated that as waste

Sobbing, grabbing her face
Tears flowing from the disgrace
No longer her temple/sacred escape

Around the corner she will peak
Hoping everyone is fast asleep
Out the door she quickly creeps

Blackness to welcome her
Cloaking her desperate self
Walking the streets looking for help

Adverting the gates of hell
She’d climb up trees to dwell
Her heart sank further as she was so unwell

A child is to eventually crack
Ripped from her mothers grasp
Thrown into the flames of a fire

Years to loosen their grip
Time to slip on past each trip
Wondering why someone could be so evil-y sick

Forgiveness granted
Prayers ensued
It is the right thing to do

Bless their soul
Let their control loosen it’s hold
Rejecting everything told

She is NOW in her own CONTROL
Took her long enough; ya know
Beautiful to see her grow

nixing those people from her life
Best choice she could make; right
Living w/out all the heartache & strife

She cut all ties
No longer to believe their lies
Moving on as she throws them to the side

Only she was to save herself.

You Crossed That Line

You Crossed That Line

I’ve had it; In totality….
It’s about to be over from this day
There isn’t anything you or you could say

I will not hold my breath
I will not pass to the side
I will not give you reason to make me cry

Your fight is futile; you lost again
There is nothing for you to gain
Your anger goes down in vain

Sandstone of lies built up into castles
Glued together by a who knows what
Feeling the wrath of such bad luck

Not a single tear to shed
No place(s) will I be disgraced
How quickly YOU can be replaced

Not sure when to quit this rant
It all came about by happenstance
Anger begets this ugly song & dance

I wish it didn’t have to end this way
Anger & retention by two
What was I, truly, suppose to do

You, my weary friend, reacted so unkind/blind
Calming my nerves, alone; I sip a bit of wine
Realizing everything will, inevitably, be fine
….YET….
***You crossed that line***

In-between normalcy

Normalcy is not about being boring
Normalcy is not about being flat line
Normalcy is not about being blind

Some will miss darkness that cradled their soul
Squeeze so tight w/all its might
Determination to kill your hopeful plights

Don the mask & grab your gear
Defenses against those who come near
A battle to which most lose someone dear

Ice cold; too frigid to hold
A chisel & hammer won’t do the trick
This is mastery of those ultra sick

Stabbing in the chest
A fierce hotness
Opening old wounds
You passed the test

Normalcy is about the quest
Hope desired to never rest
Love & happiness be the test

Pity the soul who lost it all
Reality is what we make it
The darkness hasn’t called

Make peace w/your demons
Lessens greediness of their control
Letting you go; breathing slow

Take your life into your hands
Stop relying on other demands
It’s time for you to take a stand

Upon the shore your prints are deep
Spilling tears & nothing more to weep
Releasing toxins furthermore……..
Reaching normalcy like never before

Welcome to my sickness within….

I beg to thee
Release me
take this pain from me

My life I wish to live
The strife I wish to bury
Happiness is what I’d like to marry

You know not
The feelings hurt so much; a lot
Deeper the claws reach my soul

Squeezing my breath
Ripping at my chest
Tearing apart the hope I had left

Sickening sadness swells
Trying to very hard to not dwell
For it furthers the acts of being unwell

She sings to me so sweetly
She calls me w/such love
She promises me relief when done

Slicing of steel on my naked skin
The sweet sting of life releasing from w/in
Blood letting has never been a sin

Welcome to my sickness within

Seconds that are to pass two by two

A minute for crying
The next screaming
Feelings of a human being

Upon a thrown one is to claim
Making their own graceful way
Dismissing that to which who’s to blame

Living life the way it’s meant
Working towards a turn of events
Willing to take a fall; a simple slip

Fear to grab your soul
Squeezing to keep hold
Pressing your luck; so told

Sometimes in life we are meant to trip
Into the unknown, if you will; abyss
Holding your breath of death to kiss

Believe as you will
The evils of other’s deals
So many near misses

Fear, to which keeps you kept
Floods of tears you wept
No longer relevant

Retrieved

My world crashed
My security smashed
My life turned to ash

Holding my heart you held
Knowing fully from the start
Your love for me would come apart
(Forgot to tell me the wife part)

The amusement I must have been to you
After 17 yrs of past devotion; over-due
Cradling my soul I thought you knew

My world crumbled into your arms
You gave to me what I thought …no, I couldn’t believe
There be a love so intensely like you and me

Silence inevitably rang so clear
Most profound sounds I’ll ever hear
Alone, I no longer sit, with my tears

Memories fade to black
It’s a blessing; no longer a task
My heart you stole but I got it back!

Your Heinous Act

Screaming into the abyss

Blackness born, his deadly kiss

Crystal tears land on her lips

 

Twisting realities; can’t believe

His heinous acts he conceived

Her love for him, he raped that need

 

Why would he ever do that to she?

Taking her body as he wished

Satisfying his pleasure as she was to resist

 

Plunging her into a past

One she thought to have taken care of ‘at last’

Deeds done as he always thought he’s number one

 

Evil is of what he’s done

Forgiveness she’ll never give

For, she doesn’t even want to live~~~

~NORMAL~

In order to let go
One must let live
One must only try to give

Discord & discontentment
A sign of inner resentment
Find the core pain & transcend of it

My stare of empty surprise
Delusion have long since died
Facing reality; I no longer hide

My weaknesses have trapped me past
My desires have disappeared at last
Controlling my mind & body too

That’s all I ever wanted to do

 

~*~Riding the Storm~*~*

Walking along the shore
Surging beside me
A turbulent sea
Wind hissing to a gentle breeze

Eye of the storm has come again
Frightful because I see,
Now,
The impeding end

Seducing me beyond my wishes
Billowing past any form of shame
Passionate attainable kisses
No guilt to ever proclaim

Gossamer clinging to my bosoms
As the breeze picks up momentum
Weaves into my lusciously long locks
Brushing away my worrisome thoughts

In the breeze, I cradled my soul
Giving over all known control
Patience for passion; I forebode
Upon the storm, I rode